Waa’il Abdul Salaam

Waa’il Abdul Salaam

Waa’il Abdul Salaam

Waa’il (formerly Austin Roe)

“As I realize now, instead of
these schools and parents putting their kids on Ritalin and
other junk, they should put their time and money in studying
Islam and teaching their children about Allah. When nothing else
worked – and believe me a lot of people tried to get me
straightened out – Allah did it. Allah can do anything and
everything. When He does something for you, that is the way it
is supposed to be.”

Waa’il Abdul Salaam is formerly Austin Roe. Now 13, he converted to
Islam by his own volition at the age of merely 10 years old. He movingly
describes how difficult his childhood was and how the touch of Islam has
changed his life entirely around. Many children who grow up to be
aggressive or violent are often the result of their environment –
whether within the home or without. They are not inherently as such. A
right environment and guidance with love and mercy can make them
rediscover themselves and rekindle their thought process and inherent
potentials. The story of Waai’l Abdul Salaam will bear this out.

He contributed his story to Welcome-Back.org so that it may serve as a
lesson for parents, doctors, as well as children.

My story of becoming a Muslim at the age of ten years old might be
unusual, but it was very real for me. I want to share my story so that
it might be beneficial for other kids who are going through the same
problems I went through. I was born into a family with a mother who was
Roman Catholic and a father who was Baptist. When I was born, I had one
sister who was a year and a half older than myself. When I was six weeks
old, my father took me from my crib and ran off with another woman. He
left my mother alone with my sister. He hid me and was involved in
drugs. I remember the first few years of being very hungry and alone. I
remember how I was very angry and had a bad temper.

During those first few years, my mother’s friends got her a job as a
bartender so that she could support herself and my sister. After a while
one of my father’s friends went to her and told her where I was because
he was afraid something bad was going to happen. My mother came right
away and found my father and his friends doing drugs. She saw me running
around being neglected, and so she picked me up and left with me. I did
not really know her. I guess maybe I thought I was being kidnapped or
something, so I threw temper tantrums every chance I got and became even
more angry.

Eventually my mother finally got me to smile, learn how to hug, and even
say I love you – things I did not know how to do when she found me. She
had two of us kids to support and herself, and so she wound up spending
more time working at the bar, which meant we were left with lots of
different babysitters.

Then one day my father came to the house where we lived and took me back
to where he was living with another new lady. By the end of that year,
my father tried to put me in school, which did not work. I did
everything bad I knew just to get into trouble.

The school called and said that I could not continue in the school
because of my behavior, and so I was taken back and dumped at my
mother’s doorstep. She was happy that I was back and took me to my
sister’s school. I thought I was getting left again, and so I threw a
fit, hit my teachers and other kids. The school called my mother and
said I could not go to school there either. I was mad at everyone. I did
the worst things I could think of at every chance I got. This time my
mother got on a plane with me and we flew to her mother’s house – far
across the country – in another state. She was very loving, but very
strict about my throwing fits. She did not yell but whenever I destroyed
something or had a tantrum, she would hold my hand and walk outside with
me to a pile of small wood blocks on the side of the house. She would
tell me to move all the little wood blocks from one side of the driveway
to the other and when I was done to come and let her know. Then she
would go back inside and leave me there by myself. At first I was so mad
at her, but by the time I finished moving the little blocks, I was not
mad any more. It was like a game.

By the end of the eight months that I lived with my grandmother, I
stopped throwing tantrums, liked to sit on her lap and listen while she
read bible stories and poems to me until I fell asleep. I learned all my
school lessons, knew how to ride a horse, and I absolutely knew how to
move blocks around. At the end of that time, it was time for me to go
back home, and I was doing so well that I got to ride on a plane all by
myself (with an escort of course). I felt very grown up and very happy.
She told me that I was going to be just fine, and that whenever I got
angry or sad or lonely, I should think about God. She said I should
always remember how He took care of all the people in the Bible and if I
would ask Him she knew He would take care of me too. She told me that if
I got upset or angry, I should never hurt anyone. Instead, I should just
pray to God until I was not angry anymore.

After I got back home, my mother was happy because I was not hurting
people or throwing tantrums. I was eating well and not afraid to sleep.
I was happy almost all of the time. My mother worked all the time while
babysitters took care of my sister and a new brother who was born while
I was away. My father knew that my mother had to work to take care of us
and yet he would never give her even a penny to help. He divorced her
without telling her.

Then again my father came one day. He saw how good I had turned out and
just like before, he took me away.

The new lady my father was living with was so cruel. I lost a lot of
weight. I am not sure how things happened, but it was during that time
that I supposedly split my head open on monkey bars at the school, and
supposedly was hit by a jeep in front of their home. I do not remember
those things too clearly, but I do remember his girlfriend picking up a
two-by-four and hitting me with it in the front yard. I also remember my
father slamming my head into the kitchen table because I did not write
fast enough. He and his lady friend would threaten me by convincing me
that the devil would come out of my bedroom floor and take me to burn in
hell if I got out of bed while they were having drug parties.

This went on until I was in fourth grade. My father used to show me a
big baggie filled with drugs he was then getting from a doctor and
telling me how good they made him feel. His house was filled with dirty
magazines and MTV movies and it all seemed normal because that was all I
ever knew back then. I did not know there was any other way to live. I
had long forgotten how my grandmother had taught me to pray and I could
not remember the wonderful days I spent with her riding horses, being
hugged, and read to about God. All the bad stuff at that age seemed to
push the good stuff away. When it was time to start fourth grade I acted
uncontrollably at school, hoping that I would get sent back to my mother
or grandmothers. I did not stop until I got what I wanted, and it
worked. I was taken back and left with my mother. By then she was
working around sixty hours a week. She would come home tired, yelling
and screaming and expecting us to take care of ourselves and not give
her anymore trouble. I wanted attention from her, and so I went back to
being a brat and being mean to my sister and my new little brother whom
I resented even more.

By the end of the first month of that school year, I was the worst I had
ever been. My mother could not cope with me one minute longer. My father
had already made me go to doctors who put me on five different kinds of
medicines – from Ritalin to even worse drugs – to try to control me, but
even that did not work. In fact, that stuff made me worse. I beat up
other kids, started fights, accused them of doing things they did not
do, stole things, lied, refused to obey the teachers, or do any work.
School to me was a place I was going to play and do whatever I wanted to
do. I knew they could not do anything about it. I thought I was really
something and all I thought about was myself. They sent me to the hall,
to the office, to home, and even put a box around me in class to keep me
from bothering other kids, but I still did not give up.

Do not get me wrong here – I am not saying all these to sound cool. I
was an idiot to say the least – I know that now. I want other kids to
know that it does not have to be that way regardless of their family
problems. So, if I do not say how bad it had gotten they will not be
able to understand. I was only ten years old then. I am almost fourteen
now. When I look back about what I was at ten, I cannot believe that I
am the same person, or that the kid I am telling you about above was for
real. But he was for real and he was me! Most people would not believe
that a ten-year-old kid could be as bad and do as bad things as I did.
It all finally came to an end for me when, one day, I called the home of
a kid, pretending to be another kid, and told them that their boy was
missing. You can image how much trouble I was in then. That only got me
into more drugs from the doctor. All those drugs made me see things and
hear things that were not there and made me angry enough to be
dangerous. I do not believe anyone should put their kids on those drugs
even if the school insists. Adults just have no idea what those drugs do
to kids or what they make kids think about. I am proof to tell you that
kids are not going to admit to parents or doctors or anyone about having
horrid thoughts because of the drugs. Anyway, when the drugs were not
helping and I was getting into even more trouble, it was at that point
they threatened to put me out of the family forever. All of a sudden, my
mother did not want to put up with it anymore. My father did not want me
either. I did not know what was going to happen to me.



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