Yusuf Islam(Cat Stevens)
My Early Religious Upbringing
I was brought up in the modern world of all the luxury
and the high life of show business. I was born in a Christian home, but we
know that every child is born in his original nature – it is only his
parents that turn him to this or that religion. I was given this religion
(Christianity) and thought this way. I was taught that God exists, but there
was no direct contact with God, so we had to make contact with Him through
Jesus – he was in fact the door to God. This was more or less accepted by
me, but I did not swallow it all.
I looked at some of the statues of Jesus; they were
just stones with no life. And when they said that God is three, I was
puzzled even more but could not argue. I more or less believed it, because I
had to have respect for the faith of my parents.
Gradually I became alienated from this religious
upbringing. I started making music. I wanted to be a big star. All those
things I saw in the films and on the media took hold of me, and perhaps I
thought this was my God, the goal of making money. I had an uncle who had a
beautiful car. “Well,” I said, “he has it made. He has a lot of money.” The
people around me influenced me to think that this was it; this world was
I decided then that this was the life for me; to make a
lot of money, have a ‘great life.’ Now my examples were the pop stars. I
started making songs, but deep down I had a feeling for humanity, a feeling
that if I became rich I would help the needy. (It says in the Qur’an, we
make a promise, but when we make something, we want to hold onto it and
So what happened was that I became very famous. I was
still a teenager, my name and photo were splashed in all the media. They
made me larger than life, so I wanted to live larger than life and the only
way to do that was to be intoxicated (with liquor and drugs).
After a year of financial success and ‘high’ living, I
became very ill, contracted TB and had to be hospitalized. It was then that
I started to think: What was to happen to me? Was I just a body, and my goal
in life was merely to satisfy this body? I realized now that this calamity
was a blessing given to me by Allah, a chance to open my eyes – “Why am I
here? Why am I in bed?” – and I started looking for some of the answers. At
that time there was great interest in the Eastern mysticism. I began
reading, and the first thing I began to become aware of was death, and that
the soul moves on; it does not stop. I felt I was taking the road to bliss
and high accomplishment. I started meditating and even became a vegetarian.
I now believed in ‘peace and flower power,’ and this was the general trend.
But what I did believe in particular was that I was not just a body. This
awareness came to me at the hospital.
One day when I was walking and I was caught in the
rain, I began running to the shelter and then I realized, ‘Wait a minute, my
body is getting wet, my body is telling me I am getting wet.’ This made me
think of a saying that the body is like a donkey, and it has to be trained
where it has to go. Otherwise, the donkey will lead you where it wants to
Then I realized I had a will, a God-given gift: follow
the will of God. I was fascinated by the new terminology I was learning in
the Eastern religion. By now I was fed up with Christianity. I started
making music again and this time I started reflecting my own thoughts. I
remember the lyric of one of my songs. It goes like this: “I wish I knew, I
wish I knew what makes the Heaven, what makes the Hell. Do I get to know You
in my bed or some dusty cell while others reach the big hotel?” and I knew I
was on the Path.
I also wrote another song, “The Way to Find God Out.” I
became even more famous in the world of music. I really had a difficult time
because I was getting rich and famous, and at the same time, I was sincerely
searching for the Truth. Then I came to a stage where I decided that
Buddhism is all right and noble, but I was not ready to leave the world. I
was too attached to the world and was not prepared to become a monk and to
isolate myself from society.
I tried Zen and Ching, numerology, tarot cards and
astrology. I tried to look back into the Bible and could not find anything.
At this time I did not know anything about Islam, and then, what I regarded
as a miracle occurred. My brother had visited the mosque in Jerusalem and
was greatly impressed that while on the one hand it throbbed with life
(unlike the churches and synagogues which were empty), on the other hand, an
atmosphere of peace and tranquility prevailed.
When he came to London he brought back a translation of
the Qur’an, which he gave to me. He did not become a Muslim, but he felt
something in this religion, and thought I might find something in it also.
And when I received the book, a guidance that would
explain everything to me – who I was; what was the purpose of life; what was
the reality and what would be the reality; and where I came from – I
realized that this was the true religion; religion not in the sense the West
understands it, not the type for only your old age. In the West, whoever
wishes to embrace a religion and make it his only way of life is deemed a
fanatic. I was not a fanatic, I was at first confused between the body and
the soul. Then I realized that the body and soul are not apart and you don’t
have to go to the mountain to be religious. We must follow the will of God.
Then we can rise higher than the angels. The first thing I wanted to do now
was to be a Muslim.
I realized that everything belongs to God, that slumber
does not overtake Him. He created everything. At this point I began to lose
the pride in me, because hereto I had thought the reason I was here was
because of my own greatness. But I realized that I did not create myself,
and the whole purpose of my being here was to submit to the teaching that
has been perfected by the religion we know as Al-Islam. At this point I
started discovering my faith. I felt I was a Muslim. On reading the Qur’an,
I now realized that all the Prophets sent by God brought the same message.
Why then were the Jews and Christians different? I know now how the Jews did
not accept Jesus as the Messiah and that they had changed His Word. Even the
Christians misunderstand God’s Word and called Jesus the son of God.
Everything made so much sense. This is the beauty of the Qur’an; it asks you
to reflect and reason, and not to worship the sun or moon but the One Who
has created everything. The Qur’an asks man to reflect upon the sun and moon
and God’s creation in general. Do you realize how different the sun is from
the moon? They are at varying distances from the earth, yet appear the same
size to us; at times one seems to overlap the other.
Even when many of the astronauts go to space, they see
the insignificant size of the earth and vastness of space. They become very
religious, because they have seen the Signs of Allah.
When I read the Qur’an further, it talked about prayer,
kindness and charity. I was not a Muslim yet, but I felt that the only
answer for me was the Qur’an, and God had sent it to me, and I kept it a
secret. But the Qur’an also speaks on different levels. I began to
understand it on another level, where the Qur’an says,
“Those who believe do not take disbelievers for friends and
the believers are brothers.”
Thus at this point I wished to meet my Muslim brothers.
Then I decided to journey to
Jerusalem (as my brother had done). At Jerusalem, I went to the mosque and
sat down. A man asked me what I wanted. I told him I was a Muslim. He asked
what was my name. I told him, “Stevens.” He was confused. I then joined the
prayer, though not so successfully. Back in London, I met a sister called
Nafisa. I told her I wanted to embrace Islam and she directed me to the New
Regent Mosque. This was in 1977, about one and a half years after I received
the Qur’an. Now I realized that I must get rid of my pride, get rid of
Iblis, and face one direction. So on a Friday, after Jummah’ I went to the
Imam and declared my faith (the Kalimah) at this hands. You have before you
someone who had achieved fame and fortune. But guidance was something that
eluded me, no matter how hard I tried, until I was shown the Qur’an. Now I
realize I can get in direct contact with God, unlike Christianity or any
other religion. As one Hindu lady told me, “You don’t understand the Hindus.
We believe in one God; we use these objects (idols) to merely concentrate.”
What she was saying was that in order to reach God, one has to create
associates, that are idols for the purpose. But Islam removes all these
barriers. The only thing that moves the believers from the disbelievers is
the salat. This is the process of purification.
Finally I wish to say that
everything I do is for the pleasure of Allah and pray that you gain some
inspirations from my experiences. Furthermore, I would like to stress that I
did not come into contact with any Muslim before I embraced Islam. I read
the Qur’an first and realized that no person is perfect. Islam is perfect,
and if we imitate the conduct of the Holy Prophet (Sallallahu alayhi wa
sallam) we will be successful. May Allah give us guidance to follow the path
of the ummah of Muhammad (Sallallahu alayhi wa sallam). Ameen!
— Yusuf Islam (formerly Cat